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  • Who is She?

    These Files have had me thinking about things. Connecting dots that probably aren’t there. Maybe they are though… 

    Lilith. Who is she? Adam’s first wife who said screw this, I’m not lying under you, and then literally flies off. Speaks the name, grows the wings, gone with the wind. To somewhere else. What happens after this. And why? They twist her into this baby-killing succubus queen. Siphoning off men’s splooge in their sleep, birthing demon kids, cursing women in labor (sounds like Maxwell). Seductress, child-stealing, mistress of chaos.

    So Adam gets made, then Eve from his rib. A submissive, second-place, perfect helpmeet. But that’s not the full story, just the much more prominent chapter of the story. You see, there’s this glitch in Genesis, two creation stories smashed together into one. Two chapters that may or may not be contradictory. One where they’re equal, made at the same time. The other where one is made from the other, forever a part of one and not a whole of her own. 

    So Lilith… the explanation for why the first try “failed.” She was created to be the equal, from the same dirt, same breath. But equals don’t bow, right? So she has to go. Fly away. Become the monster. Why create her at all though? I mean, in the myths. Unless it’s all real? Or maybe there’s just some truth in everything. But somewhere way back, just like with everything else… the story feels engineered. Like someone said if a woman won’t play along, we’ll portray her as the demon who hurts the most vulnerable. Keep the bitches in line. Fear the independent one. Demonize her. I get it. Sometimes I feel like the whole world is rigged for me to just shut up and submit and if I don’t, I’m the problem. The screech owl in the wilderness. The night monster nobody wants around. Not them, not the kids, and not the nice dinner parties. I get it. It’s scary and not good for the vibe. I’ve had days where I feel like I’m the one flying away, screaming inside, while everyone else pretends the garden is fine. Idk. Maybe Lilith’s just a mirror. The part of us they don’t want looking back at them. But then I crash… on the chaise lounge.

    But anyway… I think there may be more to this. 

  • Very Imperfect Rendition of my Super Bowl Recipes

    This one is more for me than most of my other posts. I had never made anything I had on Sunday, aka yesterday,prior to then, so it was really a big day. Idk if I’ll make the wings exactly the same again, but I still want to write down what I did do this time. I’m lazy so don’t expect much x. 

    Okay potato skins. I rubbed with olive oil and salt and cooked for about an hour at 400° and then an extra like 10-15 mins on 450°. After they cool, scoop out the middle. Use some sort of shredded cheese and fill it all the way up. Top it with some chopped bacon. Put it in the oven like that for like 20 minutes at 400°. Top with whatever you’d like, but one of the tongs you really should add is scallions. 

    Okay. The chili. I used like 1.25 lbs. ground beef. 85/15 if you were curious. The rest of the dish is loosely based off that proportion. I needed bacon for both this and the skins, so I cooked a few slices in the oven. I saved some of the grease to use as the fat to sauté my veggies. I used onion, a red bell pepper, a long red pepper, a poblano (charred the skin off prior), and a can of fire roasted green chilis. I used some tomato paste and after letting it all cook a little I added what was supposed to be crushed tomatoes but was actually whole tomatoes cut up by me, a can of fire roasted dice tomatoes, and some beef broth. Oh, and you can’t forget about the beans! A can of dark red and a can of black beans, lightly rinsed. I brown the meat and add some chopped bacon in there at some point. Omg the spices shootttt. Running out of time brown sugar, salt, pepper, garlic powder, onion powder, cumin, smoked paprika, ancho chili powder, some cayenne, 

    Okay wings, quickly. I did a dry rub after coating in olive oil I think it had salt, pepper, garlic powder, onion powder, cumin, paprika, some cayenne, some dried herbs, prob something else, and some baking powder. For the sauce, I basically used franks wing sauce, honey, and molasses. I may need to comment if I remember anything that I forgot now. But I did a decent job. Oh. I cooked the wings like 40 mins then after putting on the sauce broiled for a few mins. Okay that’s it for real now I think. 

  • Super Bowl Sunday

    It’s just another manic Sunday. Idk what to say LOL. I did fulfill my Super Bowl Sunday fantasies, so that’s really nice. I bought a mini popover pan… more to come. I took pics of my creations. I feel a little tired, so I guess I’ll just show rather than tell. Can you believeeee Lindsey Vonn though? Have to at least mention that. Also I can’t help but roll my eyes when the figure skating commentators call that 21-year old American the Quad God. LOL. He is very good, but like… idk.. LOL. Congrats to Breezy. Please ignore my reminder to take my daily medications in that one pic.

    not pictured: White Rice.

  • !

    I’m tired. I feel bad about some things. I feel annoyed about some others. I have my fixins to make my bread for the circus tomorrow. I got a football shaped ice cream cake and I’m happy about it. I plan on making chili, wings, and potato skins. I’ve never actually made any of them from scratch myself, so I am a bit nervous.im sure all will be well. I blew up a gecko today. I think im rooting Seahawks. What about you? Do you like the Super Bowl? Isn’t it funny how some people like the commercials That’s so American capitalism culture ugh it’s beautiful:). Well. It’s something!

  • D

    I’ve had a headache for a lot of the day. I’m getting a little over it lol. I’m not totally sure why. I don’t feel like I’m falling ill, but I guess anything is possible. This would be an okay time to be sick because then i could just spend all day watching the Olympics. I hope I’m not though. Pray for me regardless. 

    I’m so, so close to making it through this week. Woof. What a doozy! I know I shouldn’t be like that, but I just be feeling like that, man. I tried so hard to go to work all day everyday bc I took off 2 days last week. Idk if I’m gonna make it through a full week next week… May need to leave early if nothing else… who knows, maybe I’ll be sick and have to take off. Jk, I won’t be, I’m the healthiest queen in the kingdom and no pathogen will bring me down! 

    The only thing that can bring me down is… it’s a secret! I just like, lol, like, why do any of us even bother? Idk man. I just need to try my best in these trying times but it’s very hard. Anyone know of a revolution to join? Jk, jk. I’m joking.. haha. I will eat my bread and watch my circus. Anyway. I’m just not over this stuff. We’re getting crunk at the limited hangout though!!! Anyway…

    Did you catch it? Catch what? That I’m MAD!!!

  • A

    I feel like I had at least 2 things I wanted to write about today and now I have forgotten everything. It’s all probably the same stuff lately. I’m very annoyed about all of this stuff I’ve already been aware of becoming so open to the public and it literally feels like it doesn’t matter. I don’t get how so many people feel the exact same way and we’re still just continuing to live the same life. I am being exploited. We all are. Some of us are also exploiting others, but at least we have a little excuse. These people, man. They just do it and don’t care and have no reason to I guess. They are invincible because the government they don’t fund is run by the people they do. Fucking sucks bro. Just mad annoyed. People argued we need to fight for our second amendment rights. Well, when is it time? Where’s the line? Where’s anything man. Gosh I’m just a little mad man. 

    It’s really the little details that get me mad sometimes. Sometimes people act so stupid, but then are covering themselves in little ways. Like you can’t play dumb and then show me you know how to play the system! I guess it’s fine, why not play the system that’s playing you? Idk, it’s just not in me. Makes me mad. Not always, just when it’s so egregious. I’m just feeling overwhelmed by the lack of agency I feel I have. I’m angry. I’m not head-of-a-revolution material and I don’t want to do anything that will make the government kill or imprison me. RIP. 

  • M

    What are we trying for? Who are we allowing ourselves to be controlled by and why? It feels pointless to write into this void right now. I feel like a lot of other people are feeling like me but we’re all frozen in the place we’re in. Everything feels like a joke or fake or a fake joke. Sometimes some people do shit that’s so egregious it makes me develop a level of respect for people who I thought do sketchy shit but not nearly to the extent as others. Just overheard someone say it all started with the Cuban missile crisis. Idk the context but I believe her. 

    Is the weird energy/shift people have been feeling in recent years due to the poles shifting. We can make a change. But then it’ll all be the same. How can we make it so the story ends differently this time? There’s pinches of truth sprinkled around. At least Elon isn’t happy. It brings me some solace to know that. It’s depressing after a second because then you realize he’ll scorch our Earth looking for satiation. 

    How did Steven Hawkins live so long? 

  • This beat is Automatic, supersonic, hypnotic, funky fresh

    Feeling sporadic tonight. 

    Thinking about the elites. Thinking about how pathetic the masses are and how we deserve to be spoken about like cattle. We just do whatever these sickos say day after day. We enrich and serve them. They find us disgusting, pathetic, and not even beneath them, on a totally different level we can’t even be compared to them. Maybe we are idiots for not being like them. Sucks if y oh weren’t born into the club. 

    Thinking about how Epstein was essentially a frontline or department manager. Thinking about how it feels like he didn’t have a total monopoly on old money billionaires. Makes me think there’s someone out there catering to the ultra-elite. 

    I’m thinking about energy right now. What do they know about it? Do objects hold energy? Where does it come from? Any living thing, or just people? Is innocent energy more valuable? What are they trying to accumulate energy for? Is it all just about power?

    Like I guess I get why people are out there stealing, scheming, and scamming. It’s hard. 

    People love symbolism. That’s why I believe they leave us little bits of information. They get off on doing things right in our faces. 

    They fear us. They must. Why else spend all this time and energy dividing us. They don’t fear us enough to lie poorly, but enough to keep up some sort of illusion. 

    We follow the rules they make annoying for us and easily circumventable for them. 

    How much of our information has been perverted by the perverts. 

    I’m worried about that rogue lab in Nevada. 

  • Rats. I Need a Snooze!

    Busy Monday so far. Another day where I don’t have too much time to write. I do have some though. I’ve been thinking about quantum physics, observer vs observed, nuclear energy, and such lately. Thinking about early civilization. Thinking about how much of our history we do not have a clue about. Thinking about how much we think we know but we’re wrong. 

    I wonder if there are any languages that have been secretly deciphered. Anyone ever get really into the Voynich manuscript? I just want to know things. I feel like things are being hidden or obfuscated. It’s driving me a little nuts. This has been who’re, but it’s ending :(. I’m sorry. My bad. See you soon

  • Maybe I Was Just Really Tired When I Tried Posting Last Night

    What if we all kissed and made Tubby Custard? I unfortunately spent a decent chunk of my allocated writing time today reassuring an old friend starting at the same job I have that it’s normal to feel absolutely awful about work. It is such a sneakily hard job! I may need to go back to doing the worst part of it soon, but gosh, it is So much easier to deal with that when you know what you’re looking at and talking about when it comes to 90% of the issues. Anyways, I don’t have much time now. I’m feeling a little chubby rn but I’m gonna make myself a midnight milkshake anyway. I could’ve just had chocolate milk to satiate my desires, but the store didn’t have any yesterday :/. Well, they had some, just not the one I like. Anyway, shake was 1/3 vanilla ice cream, 2/3 chocolate ice cream, malted milk powder, and milk. I like a little whipped cream on top sometimes. I am thankful for each day I feel healthy! Bon voyage to those of us embarking on another week.